harry-potter-wholockian:

During the last week of January, I had to do the whole “3 month A1C blood test” thing, it was technically my first one. (I’ve been diagnosed as a type 1 Diabetic just over 6 months now) So I was reallllly flipping nervous. I figured that it had only been a few month since I actually had everything in control, (they took a month and a half to get me on insulin). I figured that everything would be horrible. 

Oh January 30th I had the follow up appointment to see my results. I was wrong. I was apparently perfect. My A1C was .68. My HDL, triglycerides, everything was absolutely perfect. EXCEPT for my bad cholesterol. Non-Diabetics, doctors want them at about 3.5, apparently. They want a diabetic at 2. I was at 2.4. Honestly, I started crying, 2.4. .68. I was ecstatic! I was doing so well, without too much effort. I was so happy!

But since that date. I don’t know what’s been going on with me. Up till then, from October till January 30, I’ve needed 14 units of Levemir every night. no more; no less. It’s been 21 days, and I’m now up to 22 units of Levemir. and I STILL can’t get back down low. Last night I was at 18. (324 mg/dl for you Americans). I haven’t been that high in months. 

I feel like snot. I can’t sleep. I’m getting the munchies all the time, I’m lethargic, I’m cold all the flipping time!

I can’t figure out what’s going on. And it’s scaring me. I know what it’s like to be DKA. I hated it. I didn’t know what was happening to me. I couldn’t even sleep all night. I woke up more than my grandmother to pee. I was lucky to not pass out.. I was at my cottage and we were an hour away from the nearest town, nevermind hospitals.

I don’t want to go through that again. I’m so afraid that’s what’ll happen again.. i’m getting high again, and i don’t know. I just don’t now anymore!

 What could be going on? Was I in the Honeymoon stage without knowing it? And so now I’ve got to try to figure everything out all over again? I hope not. I don’t want it! 

I’m 21 years old. I have other things to deal with insulin, test strips, carb counting.. I’d rather be dealing with getting a job, (and keeping the money I get for my next few things in my list, and not my medical expenses) getting my licence and then a vehicle, going to college. HECK. I want to be a Pastry Chef. Who wants a diabetic chef? I’d have to check before i tasted anything to see how things taste. It’s ridiculous.  

 I think my rant is over.. I don’t have anything more to say, I don’t think. I doubt anyone’ll read this all, but if you do, then thank you. I really appreciate it, even if I don’t even know it, or know you.

Hey! Okay, so first- I am loving your URL to no end.

Second- you MAY be coming out of your honeymoon period. (sorry!) When you first start on insulin, there’s a period of time when your body kinda jump-starts and works a little bit again. But then, your pancreas remembers that it was gonna be lazy forever, and permanently fails. This can cause your numbers and insulin requirements to go way up- and that’s not necessarily a bad thing. Just keep adjusting as necessary and pay attention to what you’re eating to make sure you’re not making it worse. The important thing is to keep your blood sugar readings down nearer to normal. And if that means more insulin, so be it! 

And another ps- being a pastry chef would be awesome. You could make low-carb, precisely-measured sweets and mail them out to al of the diabetics on tumblr…. y’know… cuz we’re just cool like that. XD

Hope this helps!